Life of a Mother- October 16 2018

I could have written a million pieces of writing and just straight-up titled it THIS J

It is ALWAYS changing….this role.

Today’s day of ‘being a mother’ goes like this.

It’s actually ‘national childcare worker appreciation day’, so I have learned.

I bought all our rooms folks a bar of chocolate, because lord-ess knows, being a mother, and one of twins, I have RELIED upon chocolate to fuel myself.

So I came into the daycare today ACTUALLY with a bit of honouring for those womyn who I have only known minimally for a few weeks not quite, but I certainly FULL-PRECIATE.

I left as usual…. This is week number 3, so this is a fairly recent ‘normal’, this walking in and just LEAVING my kids and going about in the world….hands-free.

My plans today included yoga, job search time, and college course homework time in the library (along with picking up some new books for my kids obviously).  I then had a coffee lined up with a person in an organization I am interested in working in (social/humyn service and support), and then an interview for another more basic job, more of a work-for-money job(still good ethics, an organic local restaurant kitchen role).  

Then I was to pick up my kids for daycare… and then my role as MAMA kicks in.

Snacks, Dinner, activities at home…. Bedtime, laundry, prepare for tomorrow’s breakfast, clothes, bags, etc.

It’s a long day…. It’s a busy day….

Days full of trying to evolve a bit, maintain balance in my Mama-dom…  acquire actually more of a better healthier balance in that role. Hence, utilizing the daycare service to actually benefit ALL of our lives. Body mind Spirit of us all. 

All those parts CONSTANTLY need to be nourished, and I need to constantly be ‘levelling’ up to properly do so.

This daycare situation has allowed me to start/finish a whole bunch of work on myself and all my ‘parts’, so that I can excel a bit better at being mama. I am generally noticing a difference, taking better care of myself for SURE, and thus am more calm and balanced more often with my kids…. And that actually is the most important. I mean, of course I am, SUNNI I mean….but once you become a mom…. Ideally is that you are doing everything for them, ultimately (even if that includes caretaking of YOUR SELF… it’s still for them ;) )

SO, this explains the life of a mother… ALL those plans…

Until i received a phone call that my kids are BOTH puking- Multiple times for one of them…. And everything mama/future/levelling-up oriented…. OUT THA WINDOW.

And I need to chug that nice hot coffee that just graced my presence, take some deep breathes, and mentally prepare for a subway (including an inaccessible station with tons of stairs!) and a bus ride home with two ill, weak-energied kids, potentially who will puke en route.

AND I have to keep it all together and smooth and easy…. And be prepared to carry them and it all on my back. AND then nurture them and their bodies, minds, spirits, souls, hearts, needs when we get home.

No yoga/job-exploration/interview/homework time for me today…

I just got a few minutes in calm peace….with a few sips of hot coffee in a real mug J

And a conversation with the mama who works at the café, asking about how my guys are adjusting to daycare, with a mama-to-mama moment supporting each other….

Just because… that’s what mama’s do <3 o:p="">

p.s. Shout out to ALL the mama’s around the world… HONESTLY….I ALWAYS knew I respected womyn and mama’s, but never really got it. LET me tell you…. Walking down those million stairs in the subway (carrying one child, and holding on the other’s weak hand), I actually was saying to myself, out loud….’i am a super womyn, mama, AND I am a mama of twins’…I was smiling…. I needed to give myself some love in that moment to BE a super mama…. As I was ACTUALLY being that super mama… Much respect to us all.

p.p.s. shout outs to the daddy’s who support us all in our SUPER-MAMA wombyn ROLES… it’s not easy being a parent or a humyn in this messed up-ethic-ed society… so shout of to my kids father in supporting me in this process, and taking care of our kids with genuine love. We are trying our best…