this full moon presence...

as i sit here...

in this full moon presence...

energy...

i yearn for intensity...

listening to the sounds of piano... with an accordion...

feeling emotions... that just govern themselves...

intensity...

i need to do little things to calm myself down...

lie with my legs up against the wall... a few intro-encouraging postures...

i make calming tea... chamomile, mint and softness...

i light incense...

sitting in my front window...

my plants touching me... in my line of vision... as i turn to look out the window... up at the moon.

is it true... how it feels...

the full moon-ness... all the power and raw energy...

i feel it, somehow... really...

we all should...

it makes me really raw... emotional...

this is a good time to talk and express that...

raw... emotional... vulnerable, weak... open... true...

i feel tightness in my throat sometimes...

i need to let that go...

and my neck...

i also need to let that go...

i get scared, scared of so many things...

i feel angry... at people, at culture...

at harm and exploitation...

at myself, for not fulfilling the change i wish to see...

i feel angry at making decisions that i don't always feel all right...

and mostly...

i am just not sure how i feel at all...

its a big concoction of intensity of the moon...

and so i remind myself... of its cycles...

the cyclical nature... of nature...

that i am a part of...

i will honour, and have faith in.

let myself carry along in its flow...