Today i was told by the quite quirky male nurse, (surprising
for a hospital just how quirky his appearance and person is!)... that i was
medically ‘uninteresting’.
He looked at all my numbers and figures... as they do when i
go to the hospital for this twin pregnancy.
First i get an ultrasound, then a nurse takes the numbers and inputs
them into my file... and then i see the doctor, the ‘multiples’ birth
specialist.
My blood pressure is always healthy, my weight always
healthy and reasonable... i have no other bizarre physical things going on.
EXCEPT for the exceptional NATURAL process that is happening
in me, HEALTHILY... i am growing twins!
The nurse looks at the babies weights, or if they don’t (as
weight is only taken every other week!), they still do a check of the overall
babies healths...movements and breathing, etc and their positioning in my body.
Today, as per usual for most of the pregnancy... both of
their heads are down, they are comfortably nooked together in me... perfect
special formation, that is hardly causing me discomfort.
To him, this nurse... i am medically uninteresting.
There’s not enough to do with me... i am smooth sailing
along...
Now, to just obediently follow along with their safest
precautionary recommendations, in how to deliver these babies...(IV, constant monitoring, epidural, deliver lying on back, pitocin, emergency c-section possible)... so nothing bad
or risky can even happen... then i will be the most ideal of patients in their
nice organized, figure-based, practice... Where they hardly talk to me about
what is REALLY going on, how the pregnancy REALLY is going. How i REALLY am
preparing for this labour and delivery...
NONE of that is asked of me. I am there, to get scanned,
weighed, blood-pressured and generally assessed.
And now that time is ticking, and i am soon to be considered
PAST due... then perhaps i will start to become a bit more ‘medically
interesting’ for them. Then there is more risk for them to work with... Then it
becomes interesting.
What is being forgotten when i walk into all those offices,
far too often... is how naturally, I AM AMAZING right now... my body, is
phenomenal. It is NATURALLY spectacular, what it is doing.
And i and WE should all be having COMPLETE faith in its
abilities NUMBER ONE. Instead of taking ALL precautions that it WILL
malfunction... We should start with TRUSTING it.
I am... i have been all along... and it has been truly
smooth and perfect.
To them, the hospital, full of all the latest technology and
wisdoms, with the ultrasounds and nurse and doctors... i am medically
uninteresting... i am to healthy... i am too connected and flowing with this
pregnancy.
And me wanting to approach it naturally... actually makes it
more complex for them... NOW we are starting to get ‘interesting’... because
NOW i am being more risky.
To me, i am not. To me, i am TRUSTING first, letting nature
continue along its path that it has done SO perfectly beautifully well thus
far.
37 + 4 days now.... (there’s a number for you!).... i am far
along... i am healthily ready to deliver, but it also would be healthy to have
em in for another couple weeks even now... and i bet you, by the end of a
couple weeks, they would MOST LIKELY have come out on their own.
Pregnancy is like that... it ACTUALLY works PERFECTLY well.
There are exceptions... but they are few and far between... and THAT is the
beauty of today.
We have the drugs and the knowledge with how to process and
solve the exceptions, where nature took a different course... which it does
sometimes.
I am realistic about that.
‘Medically interesting’ to this quirky nice nurse (and the
establishment he is working for and IN) means drama and complications and risk
and fear. To him and them, my present pregnancy state is ‘medically
uninteresting’. I am just too darn healthy. Natural i say... and connected
intricately and thoroughly, with the NATURAL amazing process. Feeling the
sensations... expansions... gurgles and movements and breathing with them...
and touching them... holding those spots that at first glance- seem to be
‘pain’... but once i slow down, stop... become present with them... they
subside, calm... and just are sensations... for me to BE with.
It was funny when he said that, we all sort of laughed... i
get it... i am not giving them much to work with, everything is well J
It’s funnier though, how they have just lost sight of how
PERFECT so much of it IS... how AMAZING my body is, and all these other womyn’s
bodies ARE... that we have grown these babies inside our bodies for this many
weeks... none of us CONSCIOUSLY doing it, but taken in my nature, by mother
earth... as she truly works her TRUTH magic within us.
These nurses and doctors, are good intentioned people. And they
have a ton of knowledge about what to do, with ALL kinds of complications, for
this sacred natural process, that does sometimes take turns for OUR psychic
worst. No one wants any of the babies to die, or the mothers... this happens in
nature, let’s be REAL about this.
But what happened that we forgot to TRUST that it usually
doesn't happen. And that every womyn, and every pregnancy, although they follow
general processes... there are many factors that not every womyn experiences...
and we each spend time in the phases in different ways. I may lose weight, my
babies gain, one faster then another, etc
With pregnancy, there truly is NO ONE cookie cutter
experience.
But it is amazing every time... and the MOST important
quality that doctors and midwives and the elders and womyn and sisters who have
done it before, who have birthed... who are guiding us along on this sacred
pregnancy and birthing path... NEED to be rooted and centred on... in passing
on to us pregnant womyn... is that NATURE is TRULY leading the way... and we
need to TRUST the process, believe and KNOW that it is taking us along, and it
will do it’s best. Those babies hearts are beating BECAUSE it’s process is
AMAZING.
So to this kind nurse, in this over-sanitized and SCARED
hospital setting may jokingly, but truthfully say i am ‘medically uninteresting’...
I am so thankful i am so healthy, and so truly confident and
full of belief that MY body, which has ALWAYS been governed... created and
ALIVE with it’s beautiful mysterious spark of LIFE... It is Naturally Amazing.
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