10 mins

Tonight, within a period of 2 hours, i received this message twice. From 2 different men. 10 mins Both men that at different points, I liked them a lot, one I loved. Both do not know respect thoroughly enough, for me... to be with me. They do not give enough respect for me anymore. No longer will I entertain such messages from one of them, and the other, I have to at this point in life still. I take such a message with a certain grain of salt from each one of them, a certain mis- or dis-trust. They do not honour time and communication with a care for my experience of the repercussions of their '10 mins'. I am over that. I deserve more. I give more. I am as honest as i can be about my 10 mins, and it is not ever hours, or a no-show. It will be approximately, 10 minutes, if i say it will be. And if I commit to it, I will almost very certanly, do it. I pride myself in that, and i feel very guilty if i let someone down once i have commit. I want to plan days in advance. I want to plan weeks in advance. I want to look forward to time together, and express that, and show it via text messages, via voice messages, via phone calls, or short or long dates and time together. I want to reserve the time, to spend time. Time is precious, my time is precious. And I am not hanging out with men anymore who do '10 mins' in such ways. Time is precious, my time is precious. I am precious.