It is the full moon tonight, apparently soon...
I remember how it was the full moon, that helped me to
realize i was ready to get pregnant... it was those months that led up to me
removing the IUD, the full moons, and my spotting on the full moon day... until
finally my bloodflow aligned with the full moon, and then i knew...
I am aligned with the moon, my cycles are intertwined with
nature...
it is time...
It has now been 6 months then since i have bled...
All that nourishing sacred blood... has stayed inside me...
Doubling up the content of blood in my body... to GROW the
babies inside...
And preparing to protect my body from the blood loss at
birth...
When the placentas release from my body... that connection
point between babies and me for all this time... and they leave behind 2 open
wounds... where the blood will flow again... Lochia i just found out it is called... the bleeding that happens post birth...
It was the full moon, that first month, that made me
realize... i have not started bleeding yet,, and it was the fullmoon... it made
me realize... i may be pregnant...
The full moon really had become at that point, a marker of
my fertility...
And now, here i am... simply remembering and honouring this
full time... where the meaning has changed... but my connection to its ideology
has too...
My trust and KNOWING of nature is deeper now than ever
before...
It is inside my body... i am pregnant... with both a boy and
a girl...
And they are alive and growing inside me.
Somehow, i know it is all connected... the moon, the cycles,
nature, my body, pregnancy...
But i KNOW this more than in MIND...
It really really IS...
And THIS all really blows me away...
It is ALL part of the same existence...
It is perfect, and truly un-explain-able... even if we can ‘explain
it’
This full moon, i remember, i am the same moon... i am the
same nature... the same cycles, and amazing grand energetic being of TRUTH...
It is in my nature...
I am nature.
We are ALL nature.
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