people would say it's my choice... in fact, i say it too.
it is my choice to be EXISTING moreso in the sidelines of society.
living off the grid, yet in it...
and i really am triyng to do everything right... or actions that feel as right to me as possible...
but its tough sometimes, some believing, supporting my choices... sometimes not.
and hearing from people whom in your lifetime, that you have loved, that they do not believe in the path you are on... that is tough.
the trickiest part is, i see what they are saying, since i KNOW the dominant beliefs, i was raised with them too.
and then i chose otherwise.
and now i am stuck with them... even though I still FEEL the evolution occuring in my life...
in certains nooks of this culture, i am stuck, and cannot further progress... there are certain steps that i need to enter or surpass, in order to evolve.
yet again, i say... i still see the evolution in the way i move, i hula hoop.
in the way i am stil open to learning new arts... n rhythmical sounds... languages, stories...
in the way i have conversations, and navigate through new types of relationships, such as with palliative folk, or with people who are receptive to talking TRUTHS... and being REAL with their vulnerabilities...
those conversations can flow... there is space for me, and for evolution of ME to occur, and i see it.
but i get overwhelmed...
overwhelmed by the expectations of being SO much, that to me just feels SO unnatural.
it is my choice to be EXISTING moreso in the sidelines of society.
living off the grid, yet in it...
and i really am triyng to do everything right... or actions that feel as right to me as possible...
but its tough sometimes, some believing, supporting my choices... sometimes not.
and hearing from people whom in your lifetime, that you have loved, that they do not believe in the path you are on... that is tough.
the trickiest part is, i see what they are saying, since i KNOW the dominant beliefs, i was raised with them too.
and then i chose otherwise.
and now i am stuck with them... even though I still FEEL the evolution occuring in my life...
in certains nooks of this culture, i am stuck, and cannot further progress... there are certain steps that i need to enter or surpass, in order to evolve.
yet again, i say... i still see the evolution in the way i move, i hula hoop.
in the way i am stil open to learning new arts... n rhythmical sounds... languages, stories...
in the way i have conversations, and navigate through new types of relationships, such as with palliative folk, or with people who are receptive to talking TRUTHS... and being REAL with their vulnerabilities...
those conversations can flow... there is space for me, and for evolution of ME to occur, and i see it.
but i get overwhelmed...
overwhelmed by the expectations of being SO much, that to me just feels SO unnatural.
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