Today i feel frustrated with many things in the way we treat eachother WORLD
Whats up with that? WHY ARE we rushing so much that we just do not care.
Why don’t we care?
Why do we only want to complain?
Can we not just sit together and be in awe of the world...
To just be peaceful... in silence, or in happiness, or in being?
Why can we not just be real and honest?
Can we take care of each other?
I want to take care of each other.... i want to take care of you... like, we all respect each other and sometimes you need someone... and where are they??
Honestly, from their heart... all of you walking around, forgetting about our connectedness, our EQUALITY with each other... eyes to eyes...
Heart to heart...
Breathe to breathe...
Belly to belly...
I feel this frustration today...
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Sexuality...
Sexuality...
Flirting, playfulness, eye gazing... staring deep, with a special twist... in your eyes...
Beauty...
A deeper connection that is beyond words... it’s an attraction, a special feeling that arises in you...
When you see that someone, when you think of them...
When you imagine that first touch... kiss... exploration.
Its powerful our sexuality...
I can feel it, and sometimes it consumes... you are caught up in it, in how you feel, with those babies around...
I can feel it... when there is a man i like watching me as i play with the kids... i want to know, do you want to make them with me?
It is my instincts talking... these instincts that created life on earth...
And they have been felt for years before me, and will continue on after me...
All around the world... cross culture, language, colour, ability... beauty...
They are beautiful...
And full, and rich... in my belly and womb and sexuality...
it comes out in my dance, in my flow, in my movements... everyone can see and i want them too...
i am woman.
I am all of us.
And i am free.
Flirting, playfulness, eye gazing... staring deep, with a special twist... in your eyes...
Beauty...
A deeper connection that is beyond words... it’s an attraction, a special feeling that arises in you...
When you see that someone, when you think of them...
When you imagine that first touch... kiss... exploration.
Its powerful our sexuality...
I can feel it, and sometimes it consumes... you are caught up in it, in how you feel, with those babies around...
I can feel it... when there is a man i like watching me as i play with the kids... i want to know, do you want to make them with me?
It is my instincts talking... these instincts that created life on earth...
And they have been felt for years before me, and will continue on after me...
All around the world... cross culture, language, colour, ability... beauty...
They are beautiful...
And full, and rich... in my belly and womb and sexuality...
it comes out in my dance, in my flow, in my movements... everyone can see and i want them too...
i am woman.
I am all of us.
And i am free.
the candle wick... (written- may 6, 2010)
The shade of the candle wick changes its colour...
As i let out whisper of breathe... ever so slightly...
The candle wick itself, that which is burning...
Is on fire... it is in flames...
And it is hot, and powerful...
Yet it is thriving at its power...
It often has contol... even in its most temptous states.
And it shines so bright... just like the sun.
I question ‘should i be staring at this?’... just as i do with the sun...
But its so beautiful, i am captivated.
By its strength, and beauty and flow...
As i let out my breathe... my energy plays with that fire...
In real physical energy exchanges.
And the shades of that wick glows...
They change, and intensify...
And show me the energy that we are all part of...
As i let out whisper of breathe... ever so slightly...
The candle wick itself, that which is burning...
Is on fire... it is in flames...
And it is hot, and powerful...
Yet it is thriving at its power...
It often has contol... even in its most temptous states.
And it shines so bright... just like the sun.
I question ‘should i be staring at this?’... just as i do with the sun...
But its so beautiful, i am captivated.
By its strength, and beauty and flow...
As i let out my breathe... my energy plays with that fire...
In real physical energy exchanges.
And the shades of that wick glows...
They change, and intensify...
And show me the energy that we are all part of...
it.
Sometimes...
It takes over me.
It....
Life...
And then i imagine how profound death must be.
What an honour it will be to be there at their most important times of life...
And then the cycles of life repeat themselves...
That is how mother nature...
Renewing the cycles...
The seasons...
And i feel it... i feel it in my mind, and in my body....
And in my soul...
And its beautiful.
To get to just wander around and play...
In a peaceful honest way.
I am so thankful.
Honestly...
...
It can be overwhelming sometimes...
When i feel it so deeply...
I am learning to move it better within my physical body...
And my life force...
And my senses....
...
But right now...
I just prayed to myself.
And opened my eyes to myself in almost tear-ed...
How beautiful.
It takes over me.
It....
Life...
And then i imagine how profound death must be.
What an honour it will be to be there at their most important times of life...
And then the cycles of life repeat themselves...
That is how mother nature...
Renewing the cycles...
The seasons...
And i feel it... i feel it in my mind, and in my body....
And in my soul...
And its beautiful.
To get to just wander around and play...
In a peaceful honest way.
I am so thankful.
Honestly...
...
It can be overwhelming sometimes...
When i feel it so deeply...
I am learning to move it better within my physical body...
And my life force...
And my senses....
...
But right now...
I just prayed to myself.
And opened my eyes to myself in almost tear-ed...
How beautiful.
Ego in Buddhism.... the desire for enlightenment
Ego in Buddhism.... the desire for enlightenment
Now, before i go further, i feel like i must say that i really like Buddhism and it feels like the most natural in many of its philosophies and practices... for me... in terms of the ‘main’ religions... main coming from a western perspective... obviously... this is is where all ‘academia’ and great ‘research’ logically comes from....
So, Buddhism... in reading bits and pieces... i am realizing and sort of recognising how it does in fact play out within our minds... this desire to reach enlightenment... we do and live with all these extremely and lovely and SO important beliefs... but we do them in order to achieve enlightenment....it’s like the reward for living nobly....
This is why i like Buddhism, and believe in it... it is based upon compassion, lovingkindness.... good-ness... those are principles that leave you feeling thankful. Leave you feeling peaceful. Thinking of others, and their well beings. Thinking of those in the future, the past, the present... it is a different order then western thinking, we think more, ‘me, them, them’... ha ha... its true. So it is hard for us to understand the ‘future’ thinking of Tibetan Buddhists for example with so much emphasis on future lifetimes... of us and our future ancestors.
There is also this desire to reach enlightenment, that i sort of have a hard time with... but also really love, and think is so beautiful. Not so much as though you are above and beyond, but you are in the all bliss... in the elements. You are them. And so you connect with them, and eachother. It is colourful and sparkling and calm and energetic, and peaceful and content. It is all peaceful, and accepting in its gratitude. And i do want to go there.
So there it is... i am a believer.
Now, before i go further, i feel like i must say that i really like Buddhism and it feels like the most natural in many of its philosophies and practices... for me... in terms of the ‘main’ religions... main coming from a western perspective... obviously... this is is where all ‘academia’ and great ‘research’ logically comes from....
So, Buddhism... in reading bits and pieces... i am realizing and sort of recognising how it does in fact play out within our minds... this desire to reach enlightenment... we do and live with all these extremely and lovely and SO important beliefs... but we do them in order to achieve enlightenment....it’s like the reward for living nobly....
This is why i like Buddhism, and believe in it... it is based upon compassion, lovingkindness.... good-ness... those are principles that leave you feeling thankful. Leave you feeling peaceful. Thinking of others, and their well beings. Thinking of those in the future, the past, the present... it is a different order then western thinking, we think more, ‘me, them, them’... ha ha... its true. So it is hard for us to understand the ‘future’ thinking of Tibetan Buddhists for example with so much emphasis on future lifetimes... of us and our future ancestors.
There is also this desire to reach enlightenment, that i sort of have a hard time with... but also really love, and think is so beautiful. Not so much as though you are above and beyond, but you are in the all bliss... in the elements. You are them. And so you connect with them, and eachother. It is colourful and sparkling and calm and energetic, and peaceful and content. It is all peaceful, and accepting in its gratitude. And i do want to go there.
So there it is... i am a believer.
Violence in the hood...
Violence in the hood...
Today there was violence in the hood.... there was a chair raised, after voices.... after words shouted, standing up and sticking up and ‘don’t touch her’s’.... 2 crews... one against another, one more violent, one more willing to fight and get physical... the others using their words...
Once the chair was raised, and the jumping on the guy to kick him... i moved over to get involved... i do not remember moving over there, but it must have been suddenly, and i was in... the biggest guy- his heart was racing... i felt it once i helped to get him off the targeted guy, who was on the ground... the big guy was looking at me, he almost seemed calm... but his heart was racing... i said i can feel your heart... you need to calm down....
To see things escalate so fast, to such totally un-peaceful states of violence... well, it’s beyond me a bit... i feel sad, like what to say to my fellow human beings who let their minds go astray so much that they are violent with eachother, that they are so sensitive to protect their tribes, to stand up, that will punch and kick and threaten lives and safety of their fellow human beings... why are we so sensitively defensive that something can just set us off, trigger us into states of violence, or rage, of anger.... why can’t we all just get along?
Moments before, the band was playing... twist and shout and other such simple joyous celebration playful songs... we were hula hooping, and laughing... but right across that street, was a chemical reaction brewing... with alcohol and hormones and cultural/social clashes occurring...
You just get the right combination, and KABLAAAAAAMMM.... eruption....
That’s the thing about energy... any energy in excess is not so good... and really, it could have been used in other ways... i mean, i know that... but how do i pass this on, how can we live peacefully together... with all our difference, and our energies... bouncing around like the little atoms that make us all up... combining together, forming new synergies...
It makes me sad when there is violence and conflict in my hood... i love my hood... it is my home, and it is peaceful... but, it was a little reality check, and thankfully not too serious of a check, but enough to make me go hmmm....
I am happy i felt that big man.. that i felt his heart beating... that i recognize its energy, and that he heard me... and he felt me feeling him... as he was calming down... opening up that consciousness to our connection, our body feels what our mind is feeling... it is all connected...
Now how to make us all realize so are we...
Today there was violence in the hood.... there was a chair raised, after voices.... after words shouted, standing up and sticking up and ‘don’t touch her’s’.... 2 crews... one against another, one more violent, one more willing to fight and get physical... the others using their words...
Once the chair was raised, and the jumping on the guy to kick him... i moved over to get involved... i do not remember moving over there, but it must have been suddenly, and i was in... the biggest guy- his heart was racing... i felt it once i helped to get him off the targeted guy, who was on the ground... the big guy was looking at me, he almost seemed calm... but his heart was racing... i said i can feel your heart... you need to calm down....
To see things escalate so fast, to such totally un-peaceful states of violence... well, it’s beyond me a bit... i feel sad, like what to say to my fellow human beings who let their minds go astray so much that they are violent with eachother, that they are so sensitive to protect their tribes, to stand up, that will punch and kick and threaten lives and safety of their fellow human beings... why are we so sensitively defensive that something can just set us off, trigger us into states of violence, or rage, of anger.... why can’t we all just get along?
Moments before, the band was playing... twist and shout and other such simple joyous celebration playful songs... we were hula hooping, and laughing... but right across that street, was a chemical reaction brewing... with alcohol and hormones and cultural/social clashes occurring...
You just get the right combination, and KABLAAAAAAMMM.... eruption....
That’s the thing about energy... any energy in excess is not so good... and really, it could have been used in other ways... i mean, i know that... but how do i pass this on, how can we live peacefully together... with all our difference, and our energies... bouncing around like the little atoms that make us all up... combining together, forming new synergies...
It makes me sad when there is violence and conflict in my hood... i love my hood... it is my home, and it is peaceful... but, it was a little reality check, and thankfully not too serious of a check, but enough to make me go hmmm....
I am happy i felt that big man.. that i felt his heart beating... that i recognize its energy, and that he heard me... and he felt me feeling him... as he was calming down... opening up that consciousness to our connection, our body feels what our mind is feeling... it is all connected...
Now how to make us all realize so are we...
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