broken hearted...

i am broken hearted...

and i chose it.

i chose to get into relationship, and i chose to end it.

but i feel myself creeping back into the feelings from before...

even though i know i am not supposed to.

because i said i wanted to break up.

but my heart still hurts... and i am surprised it feels this way.

i thought it would be simpler, especially since 'i chose'

but choices are confusing when they are through love...

confusing...

unclear...

strong yearning emotional nooks inside me.

he doesn't understand... that if he only expressed love more openly, more lovingly...

if he only wanted to have a family... share life into the future...

i feel depleted...

a bit lost...

im not quite sure how to do it again...

is this it?