Room for RANT!

Why is it so difficult to find a room to rent in Toronto? For all of you comfortably inhabiting a home and thus are not up-to-date with the present housing-search situation, let me enlighten you! The procedures one must endure to find a room are not so simple. There are documents needed, appointments scheduled, references expected and specific personality traits required. There is a lovely little website called 'Craigslist' where people with rooms available (and a plethora of other categories they wish to find connections with) will post between 200 and 300 ads daily describing their home’s ‘vibe’ and bits and pieces that they are looking for in a tenant. If captivated, you e-mail them back expressing whatever you need to express. Hopefully they respond, and you schedule a meeting and viewing, but maybe they are just not into you from the get-go… I’m sorry!
On arrival, you are not-so-pleasantly surprised to find numerous other people in the same home at the same time looking at the same room, all with the 'same-same-but-different' vibe that you have. All of a sudden you realize that even with your lovely kind personality and honest ways, even YOU are interchangeable, replaceable, and disposable; just as all ‘things’ are in this consumerist-oriented society! Reality is, if you make one understandably nervous remark, or if you have a socially- labeled 'flaw', such as being on welfare/social assistance, or unemployed, there are 3 more people behind/beside/in front of you... and they can easily be the one to 'fill the room'.
Since I happen to be a woman with a beautiful heart, an eccentrically earthy style, a naturally bald head, and also in a monetarily disadvantaged state- certain stereotypes are invited to form regarding my ‘character’. These traits dictate social values on a macro social- scale; and in this micro home environment, they are seemingly amplified. Friends suggest I tone it down, take off my various adornments so I ‘don’t intimidate them!’ I wonder, should I actually lower my standards, demand and expect less, maybe conform more to fit in; so I don’t disturb, and scare those fragile and sensitive 'normal' tenant seekers? You know, I could attempt to do that, but let’s be honest here, I have a really hard time turning on the ‘normal’ switch, and I do not agree with these restrictive ideals humans are judged on. Plus, simply and truly, I want to be me, as I am, in my home!
I want to live in an environment that fulfills this deepest definition of a 'home', where the heart is, right? A place where people talk and cook together, share in and CARE about each other. This could be the new beginning, my new habitat; so I let my mind and feelings wander exploring the goodness and possibilities of this new potential home and family-mates, so when it happens that- SHUT DOWN - you are rejected… it hurts your heart. So what to do then… I need to sleep! Throughout this lovely grey day, many more ads will be posted. So for now, I go back to my friends, who will house me regardless of my life situation, and who look into my being, into my heart, and know that ‘normalcy’ is all an illusion anyways… and who wants to live with that?